It's about 12:30 am and I'm writing...actually tapping...this spur of the moment post on my iPhone. My parents are asleep in my bedroom, and I am on the couch with Geneen Roth's new book Women, Food and God along with a bag of Barbara's Bakery chocolate chip animal cookies. So far, I've eaten a dozen and before I inhale the whole bag, I thought I'd try something new and tap blog instead of mindlessly eat away my feelings.
The cookies are 100% natural and made with organic grains so they're alright, no?
My parents are flying back in the morning and I'll miss them. I got to have a week of their undivided attention and they spoiled me rotten. I felt wanted.
I'm also terribly missing someone...yes a guy. He's not just any guy. He's someone who takes my breath away. But, it's complicated to use a Facebook choice. A crystal ball would be comforting to peek into perhaps. It's a long story which is why right now cookies are love.
It's now closer to 1am and what I want are more animal crackers, but what I need is to feel like I'm that someone special. What I want is to cuddle and be wrapped in the arms and warmth of Mr. Breath Taker, but what I need is to feel that connection...that connection most people never get to experience but we did.
But for now, right now in this present moment, I'll be with my feelings and tap blog for you fine people. As I tap and share a part of my heart, I feel the urge for the sweetness of the chocolate chip animal cookies die down. Perhaps instead of cookies, I just needed to give that part of me the same undivided attention my parents gave me this week.
I'm here for you body and heart. I'm going to fill you with attention and wisdom from Geneen instead of cookies...Yeah, we're thinking that non-food indulgence will feel better.
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I didn’t want the cookies; I wanted the way being allowed to have them made me feel: welcomed, deserving, adored. /via @GeneenRoth on Twitter.
